We all have our faults; we all wish we could be more productive sometimes and that just doesn’t happen. We wish we could concentrate more and learn more, and strive to being able to pay attention in the most boring class. Coming towards the last week of classes for the semester before finals, you realize just how bad you want it to be over. Literally, I have 3 class days left, that’s it and it’s all that I can think about.
But I also cannot stop thinking about the stress I have right now to finish those last 3 papers and push through those 2 finals. Yeah, welcome to my world of being an English major. (insert eye roll emoji) I have stress on top of stress, and people can see it and feel it. But seriously, do I have the right to complain? I have an awesome support system and a lot of things to be thankful for, and all I can think about is ‘am I going to get all of these papers turned in on time????’
The answer is yes. Yes because I will “Commit thy way unto the Lord; trust also in him; and he shall bring it to pass.” Psalms 37:5. Because I believe, He will provide for me and carry me every stressful step of the way, not matter how much He wants to tell me to do it on my own He won’t. He won’t ever leave my side as long as I follow Him. Why is that so hard for us to understand sometimes??
“But they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint.” Isaiah 40:31. This is one that I need to work on desperately because I do not know when to let go and let Him take control. No matter how much a professor may pile on me during the last week of the semester, how much work stress I have while doing all the school work, or how much actual life happens, I need to let Him take control and fly.
We are all trying to run this race and we cannot see the finish line. I can see my graduation next spring, but I don’t see the almost perfect life that I will have. I can’t see it because I am not patient, “Wherefore seeing we also are compassed about with so great a cloud of witnesses, let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which doth so easily beset us, and let us run with patience the race that is set before us.” Hebrews 12:1. We need to stop worrying about what is going to happen one or two or five years from now; God wants us to focus on the here and now and let Him take care of the rest. It’s only His business anyways 😉 . He tells us to “Fear thou not; for I am with thee: be not dismayed; for I am thy God: I will strengthen thee; yea, I will help thee; yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness.” Isaiah 41:10.
Sometimes you just want to run away from all of your problems and hide from them, or tear them apart and wish they weren’t your dreams to begin with. But if we just stick to God and follow Him we won’t have to think about throwing our dreams and aspirations away, and we won’t have to hide from our problems. God’s got this, why won’t you just let Him take control?